Friday, August 9, 2013

Among Cattle

It occurs to me that I am no longer... What you could call human. The Attendant, Samael... The Yellow Eyed Angel told me that this human form... The Azoth mimicking my bones and organs, is only to ease my brain pattern into the new and improved form. In that sense, I am not working at full capacity. According to Samael, it will take more time... But I should gradually begin to make the most of my new found existence. Hehehehe... I remind myself of the T-1000 from Terminator 2. Bullets can't stop me. The ones that don't just pass right through me are consumed by the Azoth. Knives can cut me, but what flows out IS me. Living, Me. Explosions. Being Flattened... Those seem to be the only real conventional ways to SLOW ME DOWN. I reform over time. Any fragments that cannot meet with the whole are... Unconsciously deactivated and die.

I get so hungry because of that. Because I am not whole. So I eat and I eat. Theoretically anything with an amount of energy in it would work. As I am not a machine I cannot, say, eat a power line and gain that energy. But I can get it from meat and bone and blood. The smallest rat could revive me from a state of near death. Even less, a wayward fly landing on a puddle of Me. I am not Human any longer.

I considered this fact today, as I was looking around. No sign of Iblis or anyone else here yet. I hope to keep it that way. I suspect the syringes filled with that WONDERFUL Apocalypse Juice might be somewhere here. No luck so far, but then... I expected as much. Honestly, I am on standby for a call from MARCUS. He will have an easier time locating anything useful. I assume a different Thoughtborn will be sent on Media Duty. Heheheh. It's funny. I have never seen any Runner throw any theories about this out... They always just assume that we have people in the various Governments who can shut down any and all Media attempts to show off our activities. Consider. What is a Phone Call? An E-Mail? A News Broadcast? Now. Think of the nature of a Thoughtborn. Floating around out there with all the signals and waves. Minds connected to an intelligence so eldritch and beyond comprehension that it, in a way, elevates them above Normal Humanity. Thoughtborn can intercept E-Mails, Phone Calls, TV Broadcasts, Youtube Videos. They edit them, censor them and distort them in ways to undetectable and perfect, no one would notice a thing. They can do it in seconds. True. The Governments make it absurdly easy with their own little spy tools. But they can be censored too.

Aside from information gathering, Thoughtborn can remotely tap into security cameras, cell phone cameras... Any Camera really. So naturally, since the Newborn's children don't quite want to end the world just yet, we are getting OODLES of support from their weird ilk. Odds are you know... If you have a Cell Phone with a Camera, a Computer with a webcam or Microphone, and obviously if you are near any conventional security cameras... Right now, even as you read this, you are being watched. You are being studied and you are being analyzed. Given our current alliance... This means that, if they are feeling generous, I might get a phone call from a distorted voice telling me all about you. Where you are, what you are doing, what you are wearing, any weapons. Fun stuff. But I am busy. So busy. Just waiting for them to find TWO little Syringes in this big, wide world. A somewhat difficult task even for them.

So I was walking along, under their watchful eyes among the herds. Among the sheep. Do you know, I can your heartbeats now? It was so hard to... Tune out and turn off at first. Always there. Thump Thump, Thump, Thump. Endless thumping all around me. My mind would drift off into imagination. I would see myself RIPPING out that hateful drum and tearing into it. Feeding my hunger, as the pain washes away beneath a tide of red, wet blood. But these sheep... They had no idea who they walked with. What they walked with. Once I was a wolf walking among them but now... I am something more. Bigger and hungrier. Am I a Tiger, staring down these pitiful two-legged goats. No. So much hungrier. I am Colder than that. Maybe I am a Crocodile leering at a herd of dull witted Antelopes drinking at the watering hole. No... Bigger. Greater. Hungrier. So Hungry.

Then it came to me. Obvious in hindsight, what I am now. I am a Shark. A mighty killing machine, ever hungry, ever hunting for fresh meat. But... Unlike them I can walk upon dry land, I can feed on anything that lives and breathes and has a heart beating red blood through decaying veins. I keep moving and moving and hunting and feeding, ripping and tearing biting chunks of wet red flesh, snapping bones to drink the marrow from the crumbling bits, ripping open organ and chewing crunchy, chewy bits of ragged bloody skin...

Everything around me was food. The revelations hit me hard, but lifted such weight... I am the top of the food chain. I can pull the entire thing into my maw and chew it to pieces. Nothing living can stop me. Nothing living can KILL me. I am no longer of humanity. No longer bound by their flaws and their sins. Your flaws and your sins... You don't deserve to die for what you did. You don't deserve to die for what you did not do. No longer for my suffering, no longer for my hate. You deserve to die because you are Food.

You are Food and I am hungry.

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  1. "I am not Human any longer."

    YOU DON'T SAY?!

    On a side note: SHARK?! BRING OUT THE HARPOONS BOYS!

    *JP

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  2. You can hear my heartbeat? That makes me paranoid.

    Did you know that toilets kill more people yearly than sharks?

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    1. Depends on definition of toilet.

      If it's anything you piss/crap in than I guess some people really did kick the bucket.

      *JP

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    2. Heyooooo!

      Also.

      Sharks kill an average of 5 people a year.

      Deer kill an average of 130.

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  3. Sharks kill five people annually in America.

    Vending machines kill eleven.

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  4. How did I know you idiots were going to throw out that Statistic. Missing the point completely as ever.

    But lets humor you. Humans are higher on the food chain than Sharks. Just as I am higher than humans. How many things lower on the Food Chain does a Shark kill annually? Answer me that.

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    1. Well, how specific do you want us to be? Plankton and such things, after all, means sharks are constantly eating. But in terms of substantial meals, it can be anything from a few hours to many many days.

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    2. Constantly Eating sounds about right. Heheheh.

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    3. Oh, and also.

      Sharks are higher on the food chain than seals, but seals have been known to hunt and eat sharks. Make of that what you will.

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    4. OH! And... crocodiles have also been known to eat sharks. You probably should have stuck with the crocodile analogy.

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    5. Pretty much anything can kill anything.

      When I was a child I saw a tiny little woodpecker kill a dog thirty times its size.

      *JP

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    6. What Sharks do to their food is... Closer to what I do when truly hungry. Also. It depends on the species of Shark I think. The larger, smarter, stronger Sharks would be more than a match for a Seal. And if not? No matter. There are certainly no Seals out there among you to deal with me.

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    7. I like this game.

      I'll go ahead and assume you're thinking of yourself as the Great White Shark. Here's the deal, then. They eat every 2-3 hours, since they'll die if they don't stop moving and they need to facilitate it. Great Whites have an almost limitless field vision, with two blind spots, one behind its head and another on its nose. They tend not to get eaten by seals or crocodiles. Or perhaps a tiger shark? Similar deal with a tiger shark. Ultimate predators. But they aren't constantly eating like, say, a whale shark or a basking shark, who are filter feeders.

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    8. What if they all developed a brain eating disease that deteriorated them to make seal noises.

      You'd be fucked, right?

      *JP

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    9. Sharks have enhanced immunity to disease.

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    10. Oh, which I mean to say is, they can get diseases, but their bodies are radically different from other animals. Being solitary predators, a disease wouldn't spread easily through sharks.

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    11. Talking about runners, your comment wasn't there when I typed mine. Morningstar said there are no 'Seals' among you guys. I was doing bad comedy again.

      *JP

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    12. Oh. Well, in Morningstar's case, despite knowing what he meant by shark, I was just being deliberately obtuse, because the comparison of a dangerous shark is eerily apt for him.

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    13. Don't worry! Just punch him in the nose or gills and you win!

      *JP

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    14. Oh no fucking way. Never try to punch a shark in the nose. You might as well just crawl into its mouth. No, sharks are faster than that.

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    15. Then barrage him with hundreds of harpoons!

      *JP

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    16. I'm not a nerd. You are.

      Also. I thought harpoons were for whales?

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    17. I'm totaly a nerd :D

      Harpoons are used for most bigger water creatures. Whales, sharks, dolphins, stuff like that.

      And most of it isn't legal anywhere.

      *JP

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    18. Oh, OK. We'll get a submarine and launch missiles at him.

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    19. Nuclear missiles will cause contamination of the food chain, wars, and Fallout style worlds.

      So fuck yeah they'll be nuclear.

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    20. I'll start collecting bottle caps.

      *JP

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  5. Tis why I like you Skywalker, you know what you are and you know what you want and no matter how many people try to prove you wrong, you know for a fact they are the ones who are wrong.

    At least that's the impression I'm getting from you.

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    1. Oh... I don't know YET. But I am learning so much every day.

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    2. I was simply providing him with facts about sharks.

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  6. Yeah, you're fine as long as nobody has a fuck-off big magnet. I'm beginning to see a pattern...

    So yeah, you're a lot harder to kill, but thinking you're immortal would be a pretty significant mistake. Everything can be killed.

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    1. Even Father? GO ON. Speak your mind. Speak honest. I would LOVE to HUNT YOU DOWN and SHOW YOU how Immortal I really am.

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    2. Yeah, even Slendy. Everything can be killed, but most won't be killed until the end of the human race.
      And quite frankly, if you're hunting down proxies who don't worship the slednerman, I have to congratulate you on defeating Redlight comprehensively and with no real bragging, dealing with the cold ones, and preventing the runners from organising sufficiently to pose a threat.
      I mean, you wouldn't turn away from jobs Slendy set you for a personal hangup, right? That would be incredibly disrespectful, after all.

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    3. Hey Skywalker, get in line, I called dibs on this one long ago, I want to be the one to kill him, slowly.

      VERY SLOWLY.

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    4. 1. Don't steal my name for Kelly. Get your own.
      2. FATHER DON'T GIVE A FUCK. He isn't the one ordering me on my little quest. Redlight is BENEATH him right now, and none of this effects him. End of the Universe? No Big Deal. HE WILL MOVE ON TO THE NEXT ONE.
      3. Fine Kelly. Make a video would you? I want to SEE IT. And PLEASE go slow. Make him SUFFER in exquisite AGONY for weeks. WEEKS.

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    5. He might move on to the next universe, but will you? Ya see, I'm dead either way, but it seems you might be interested in remaining immortal and free-willed a wee bit longer. And I have my own, it's just a little wordy. And seriously, you think you're the only one who can use that nickname? Wouldn't that require, say, originality? Which that name lacks, being a common shortening?

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    6. Also, Kelevtov (see? Originality!), why do you want to kill me? I somewhat doubt it's just because I'm a proxy/

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    7. Well. Originally it is because you are currently breathing. Now. It is because you are a smartass.

      No. I won't move on to the next Universe. Neither will the Attendants, hence why this is their problem.

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    8. Oh no worries Skywalker, I will drag it out as much as I can, for as long as I can, but I doubt there will be a video, however, I can try it with my audio recorder.

      And Philly, I want to kill you, well, probably, because I simply dislike you. Why you may ask? Well, I can't really tell, sometimes there are just people that you dislike and sadly for you, you are one of those people, that and you're a proxy.

      I don't even think I will kill you, I will just torture you, tie up up, or something and just leave you after torturing you, maybe Skywalker will find you and finish you off.

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    9. Charming. That makes me sad though, because I like you. I like the debates we have.

      Also, Morningstar. Fuck yeah I'm a smartarse. On the plus side, I get the job done, without having to resort to immortality. So if you want to waste your time coming after me, fine. But don't be surprised if I take the easy way out.

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    10. I don't get all your grabbies over nicknames, I just call him Kelevra 'cause that's what he introduced himself as... actually, I think I called him Kelka a few times but he wasn't very receptive to it. Meh.

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    11. HEY, I HOLD THE CROWN OF SMARTARSE AROUND HERE.

      And I provide sources.

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    12. I dunno, you're too nice to be a proper smartarse. Doesn't work so well. Also, with morningstar you're less 'irritating smartarse' and more 'intermittent explosive disorder', what with the screaming improbable threats.

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    13. Well, not scream. My voice is far too quiet to scream threats. I mean, I can crack a proper scream if I'm frightened.

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    14. Alright, writing improbable threats, usually involving rusty objects being used as suppositories, in capital letters.

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    15. To get technical, I very much admire the swearing of Malcolm Tucker. Except I have a Northern (read: Norvu'n) accent, rather than a Scottish one. Also, it only tends to happen, when they threaten people I like and so on.

      So... do you have any plan for when they torture you? You might want to think up an escape plan. Just in case.

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    16. Everyone admires then swearing of malcolm tucker. It's a law of physics, I think.

      As for the plan, do I seem like the type not to have a couple? As it happens I'm working on one as we 'speak'. And there's always the eternal contingency.

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    17. For example, I'm currently on my way to an undisclosed bunker in Mongolia. Even if Lucy did bribe a local official to show him the way, he'd have to beat a path, across forests and mountains, my spies lurking in every shadow and Pathway. Eluding them isn't a possibility. Of course, he could kill his way there, but I don't think he has the stone cold brass ones to kill that many strangers. Even if he does cut a trail of blood to the bunker, he'd have to contend with the maze. Designed by a shard who's only satiation comes from the suffering of servants, it's a construction of concrete, mirrors, and traps that would drive a good man insane and a bad one to good. There, I wait, in a hyperdiamond sphere coated in nitrogen triiodide and smallpox, surrounded by mad doctors. So that's plan B.

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    18. I'd criticise you for telling everyone it's in Mongolia, but hey, Mongolia is a big ass country.

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    19. Not to mention there's no evidence I'm telling the truth. Mongolia might only be where the missiles are being launched.

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    20. If you're talking about the submarine ones, I regret to inform you that Mongolia is landlocked.

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    21. I know. It took a long time to drill tunnels under Mongolia to launch missiles made of submarines from it. Worth it.

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    22. I regret to inform you that you have to go through China and/or Russia to do that. Not really countries you want to piss off...

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    23. Meh. I convinced them if they didn't let me the other was going to take the opportunity to have the first submarine-tunnels.

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    24. Hang on, then why the fuck would you waste your time building it in Mongolia when you apparently could have done it in China or Russia? And don't give me any 'no room' shit, both countries are massive as fuckerydoo.

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    25. Because I like Mongolia and this project could lead to more cash (if the government starts taxing missile launches) and thus urban renewal. Also, both China and Russia are too strict about their 'no novelty missile launchers' rules.

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    26. Just under half of Mongolia's population live in Ulan Bator, I don't fucking think they need urban renewal...

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    27. I'm sorry, I can't hear you over the sound of URBAN RENEWAL. Also the Mongolian tax was really low and they offered me a free Przewalski horse. But it was mostly the urban renewal thing.

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    28. So Mongolia, with a low tax rate and serious under employment problems in the city and an apparent desire for urban renewal, presumably in the shanty town areas, is going to spend a good few millions funding and facilitating vast underground tunnels, jeapordising relations between Russia and China, interfering with the stability of their already earthquake-prone land, to build a base that will not benefit them in any way, shape or form.

      Makes sense, I guess.

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    29. Yes, because that's the least realistic part of plan 'launch submarines full of rockets at people'. And those tunnels are a bloody marvel of modern engineering. The amount of tourism should more than cover the costs of the buildings that collapsed. And this way China can't say they had the idea first.

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    30. Well you might as well use the actual tunnels as LFs.

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    31. Also. I'm not saying China had the idea first, but they are wayyyy ahead of you.

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    32. Holy crap, that's kind of awesome. Just out of interest, where did you even get submarine missiles from? They could just as easily have been normal missiles.

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    33. In terms of SLBMs? Russia got there first, I believe, but now countries have the technology to make their own. You can purchase your Make-A-Nuke kit from your nearest toy shop.

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    34. I meant more along the lines of your assumptions the missiles I would have launched from Mongolia would be from submarines. As opposed to an ICBM silo (Lucy is in 'Merica right?)

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    35. In the grand old scheme of things, an ICBM would do better.

      I believe he's a citizen of the United States of America, yes.

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    36. That would explain the horrible cliched name. Luke Cipher. Just sounds like someone didn't realise that they could call their kid Lucifer. Or possibly the ant/protagonist of the single worst action movie ever.

      But I'm not gonna launch a missile. For starters, it'd be difficult to swing it, and there'd be far, far too many uninvolved casualties. Not my style. Also, I don't particularly want to kill Luke. after all, he's doing good for us in the long run. So I'm probably just gonna do what I do best.

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    37. He was named that because his parents thought he was a manifestation of the devil. Or something. Ask him.

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    38. Yeah, I get that, but why bother with splitting it into two names? Why not just call him Lucifer and get it over with?

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    39. Too obvious, that's why. Sheesh, give the kid a name that will function OK in school. Damnation, I used to have a good friend called Luke. But I don't think Cyphre was his surname.

      Maybe his parents were a fan of The Matrix? Hang on, I was born in 1997 so that'd make him younger than me. Never mind.

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    40. I doubt his parents would care so much. Weren't they completely insane and horrible horrible people? Besides, he could still introduce himself as Luke. Doesn't have to mention it's short for Lucifer.

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    41. Because my family's last name was Cyphre you shithead.

      Now. Onto cracking that little escape plan of yours. First. I have my doubts that is a legitimate escape plan. Second. In the Path, I travel AS Azoth. Completely undetectable from the rest of the stuff floating around. Three... Well that would be telling. Four. I am perfectly willing to slaughter my way to you. It would be fun.

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    42. First, I kinda figured. Second, I have an alternate to the path that I kinda want to try out. Three, Yes. Yes it would. Four, I kinda figured. Which is why I got my people into something of a protection scheme. Changed names, not with anyone who knows me, changed appearances.
      Signed, the proxy formerly known as Lovett.

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    43. Hmm, Lucifer, from Latin "lux" (light) and "ferre" (to bear). It's not that bad a name.

      Bluff, Phil. BLUFF AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE.

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    44. Bluff, bluff, bluff the murderous proxy, eh?

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    45. That's what I do. And look as adorable as possible to psychos so they won't want to kill you.

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    46. I'm not terribly good at adorable. It always ends up as more bedraggled.

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    47. If I can, you can. I manage even though I curse like a sailor. Do ittt.

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    48. I prefer the almighty power of being not terribly remarkable. Hence why I've stepped down as leader of my little faction. And disbanded said little faction.
      Speaking of which, someone should probably give Veigar the heads up that he can't stick around at the safehouse anymore. I think Dresden has a spare that he can loan out.

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    49. I'm jealous. I didn't want to be considered adorable. It was a what Morningstar and Azrael, and it's probably what's keeping me alive.... D:

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    50. On the plus side, you've got a bunch of psychopaths protecting you, while they're planning a collective torture picnic for me :(

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    51. What, like the mafia princess of psychopaths? XD

      Good fucking luck. I'd throw out some threats at them, but it occurs to me that they might use them as ideas.

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    52. Thanks. If I'm lucky, I might be able to string this out long enough that Luke gets bored. heh, who am I kidding?

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    53. Oh, I remembered why I dislike you, thank you.

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    54. Also, Skywalker, in order for you not to get bored, how about we have a slight race, as to who gets to kill Philly faster hmm? This way, he has to defend from two sides, not to mention it will be fun.

      How about it?

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    55. Sorry. I had to re-establish myself as top smartarse.

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    56. If you mean me, that is. If you mean Phil, well, that ain't my problem.

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    57. I wrote "Philly" in my comment, you should read more carefully.

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    58. By the time I was posting the first thing, I could only see your first comment remembering why you disliked him.

      I don't dislike him, just his knowledge of Mongolia. Or lack thereof.

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    59. *sighs*

      Yet another youtube comment section...What is the world coming to?

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    60. You know, Kelly, I'd love to. But I get the feeling anymore delays will only serve to have me... Well. Unpleasant things will happen. Shark though I may be to humans... In the Grand Fish Bowl of the Universe, I am still no bigger than a guppy.

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    61. Oh well, some other time then.

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    62. Now I want to know what kind of fish I am.

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    63. You got disliking me from me not liking my chances? Fair enough, I guess. Still, worth considering that I'm still gonna try it.

      Speaking of which, I believe postcards are traditional. Lovely weather, friendly locals. Plenty of work. Wish you were here.

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  7. You aren't human any more? Well. Who would'a thunk it. May I introduce Morningstar, Captain of the Obvious and slightly deranged! Be careful with this one, he thinks he's a fish. -- Jack

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  8. "Am I a Tiger?"

    *le gasp* There really IS a tiger in the woods!

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